In life, it is perfectly obvious that it feels good to take action on what you enjoy doing the most. If that fun thing can be made into a career, where people offer you money for it, it will prove itself to be an ideal way of life.

I look into my own life and I see the potential in this ideal way of life. Having the prospect of living through my passion, I created a video game called “Path of Vidya”. This was easy enough to do, at the time, because I was living with my Mom who didn’t mind paying for most of my expenses.

While the idea of people playing my video game, having fun and expanding their mind with the concepts I put forth were all good reasons for creating the game, it didn’t seem to be the main one. My main concern was money.

I strongly desired to live a life of freedom. Where I could live and do what I wanted at all times. This unfortunately is the predicament of money. Was I really doing these endeavors for mere ink on paper? The spiritual side of philosophy would say that this is a grave misdirection that can lead anyone, with enough avarice, in their eyes to become utterly confused as to what truly makes them happy.

Money definitely can make me happy. To hold it in my hands and say that “this is mine”, gives me a sense of security that I will be able to fulfill most of my desires at will. However, I know that this is merely a permission slip. A way to create that feeling through a symbol instead through my own energetic use of willpower as thought control. If I can assume I will fulfill my desires at will, without money, then I would be at a more commanding position, in life, because then I would not fear the lost of anything.

Yet, when I look at how my game came about, it wasn’t at all because I wanted to create something new and provide people more joy for their lives. I figured, that there was enough of that already happening. The video game I was going to make seemed like it would be too reminiscent of the various other popular and lesser known RPG’s at the time. What would make my game stand out?

Thus, I began to create with the intention and expectation of money. I have written many articles in the past that speak about the dangers of “expectations”. To expect, is to set yourself up for future sorrow. Because often times, reality does not live up to our expectations. At least not so immediately.

The intention however, did fuel my the creative process. It seemed that while creating this game, I forgot completely about the idea of money. I started to make something that I knew was extremely worthwhile. At least for people who enjoy a classic RPG experience. I was able to infuse knowledge/philosophy in a fun way. It also was a profound catharsis to tell some of my life’s story through the medium of gaming.

When released, I decided to place it up for free instead. Half assuming that it wasn’t worth any value and half assuming that people would grant me donations for it. I was amazed to find that it received several positive reviews. Many people who played it, felt like it was worth the time they invested into it. I am not sure how their opinion would change though, if they had to pay some money to play it, however.

Making a living, through my personal art, was the whole point of that game. And still, through the process of making the game, I felt like the creative process became the point of the game. The idea of expanding consciousness while having fun doing so.

As I sit in my apartment, unemployed and uncertain where my rent money will come from. I look to random strangers to somehow break free of their daily algorithm and give a “no name” a chance at exposure. Most people latch onto those who have more exposure. It is a type of vetting process that our minds are accustomed with, and I get that.

Still, I trust there will be a day where some new type of interaction is created in our culture. Perhaps through technology or otherwise. Some way where we all recognize each other’s greatness in exactly equal light. Where the desire of money is dead because we all are given exactly what we need when we need it, freeing us from the idea of poverty and slavery.

Until then, I continue to see Money and Spirituality as one. If you grant me some of your money as a gift… it is one of the most spiritual acts you can provide me. If you say “money doesn’t matter to me, it is about love and truth”, I would not be able to believe you. However, as soon as I receive any amount of money from you. Then I could easily believe that you are capable of this loving state. If you feel your money is best spent elsewhere, I know exactly what you mean! I can’t support everyone either. But, I wouldn’t lie to myself, by saying “It isn’t about the money”.